Sunday morning, rough already.

I woke up at 4am, couldn't get back to sleep. Kevin had to be at work
at 7am. So I finished feeding Liam and tried to sleep, but just dozed on and off for a while. Fed Liam after he got up, we hung out for a while, then he had another nap. When he awoke he was hungry. No surprise, but we didn't have ANY formula. Oh stress. Would I really have to take this hungry neurotic
crying baby to the store? YES. Oh gaw, it was painful. Never again will I
run out of formula lol. I will stockpile it like a hoarder : )

Hoping Kevin gets off early today. I need a serious break. I am trying to
stay awake and entertain the munchkin at the same time. I haven't ate anything yet except some chocolate. I am seriously addicted to chocolate.
I don't have my peanut butter train here in Texas, so chocolate will do.

Liam will be 16 weeks this Friday (4 months) I can't believe he is that
old already. He is growing too fast. Before I know it, he will be a teenager. Liam, one thing. I hope you stay as even keeled and sweet as
you are now. You are such a good baby, we are blessed that you are so good.

I know everyone thinks their kid is good, but I guarantee If they were
to babysit ours, they would be jealous lol--- I can say that, I'm his momma : )

Speaking of the devil. He is up. I guess I should go and do some tummy
time. He seems to like it. If he is getting tired of it, he just kinda
grunts really loud like a weight lifter LOL, it's cute : )

Until next post, Au re voir!

Where did my post go??

I got on to blog today and one of my posts is gone???
okay, strange. I didn't delete it. It was about go kiss
your kids and love them. No one is promised tomorrow.

Well, today is Friday and my friend Diana had her baby.
We might go try to see her today at the hospital. Kevin might
be too tired when he gets off work. So we will see I guess.
I am home all day with Liam so, when he gets home I am dying
to get out of the house, but all he wants to do is be at home.
I told him, if he stayed home with a baby all day, he would
understand how I felt. Sometimes, just driving around the block
a few times is good. At least I have gotten out of the house. It
has been a slow process of meeting people here. My pregnancy was
bad, so i couldn't get out and go to the meet up groups I had
joined, and when we tried to get involved at church around September,
the next class didn't start til February, talk about a let down.
I am a social person and being secluded for the last year has been
a nightmare...really depressing. There were days I thought, man I
need some Prozac or something because I just didn't think I could make
it another day. It has gotten better, slow and steady I guess. I miss my friends and family back home. I am dying to get home and see everyone, and of course let Liam be the main attraction when we visit back home : )

I still don't know how the trip is gonna transpire. We need to find
someone to watch the dogs. We had someone offer, they just had a baby, so
don't know if they will still be up for it. I hope and pray they are, but we will see. And, of course driving with Liam alone across the states
is kinda scary. I am not one to be fearful of things. Gosh, when I
was younger, my friend Kelly and I would walk around downtown Louisville,
while at Sparks....our favorite house music club, and we would make friends with homeless people and such. My mom always told me I shouldn't but, I wasn't afraid. My thought was, If it was my time to go, then you can't
do anything to prevent it. So many people are afraid of people like that.
Some of those people were nicer than the well to do people I knew.

I was nervous when drove back to Louisville by myself, but I did it,
and now that nervousness isn't there, but now there is a baby in the
mix, so it is more stressful. Will Liam sleep good? He falls asleep
in the car. Will I forget something important, say, like his stroller,
etc. I have to think everything thru. I hope everything falls into place
so I can make that trip home. God will provide,ask and you shall receive. Okay, I need a dog sitter, place to stay in Louisville, and money : )
This is when I say abra cadabra : ) or Ta Da!!

This has been a great day so far, Liam has been especially excited
all day, and very smiley and kicking those legs. He gets that from me.
When I get excited, I jump up and down and generally just move around
a lot. It's so cute to watch...him not me : )

Speaking of him, I think I will go wake him, he has napped long enough.
He is such a good sleeper, so I am not worried about him not sleeping
at night. He has been sleeping thru the night since about 8 weeks. I guess some babies either are good or not. We got a good one. We realize how blessed we are with Liam. He is amazingly good in so many aspects. Our friend came to visit in April and his mom mentioned that he was going to
be surrounded by a crying baby all weekend. When he left, he said, Liam
was maybe the best baby he has ever been around. We get that all the time.
If we go anywhere, people always comment how good he is, or how cute
he is. We eat it up of course. What parent wouldn't be proud to hear that??

Well, I guess that is all for now. Hope everyone has a good weekend!!

Go give your kids a kiss right now!!!

After reading a blog today about SIDS. It made me want to never let Liam out of my sight. I realize this isn't possible in life, but I just wanted
to go run and love on him and kiss him. And thats what i did. I woke him up from his nap to play with him, and give him tons of kisses, No one is promised tomorrow, so don't take anything for granted. Okay, on a lighter note. I just ate a chocolate ice cream bar for lunch and it was delicious. It was a new brand called "Magnum" dark chocolate. I guess choclate is my alcohol. I have no problem with drinking, but I don't do much of it. If I order 2, I usually drink about 1 and a half. But ever since being a mom, I need chocolate to be kept in the house. I have become addicted to Butterfingers. So tasty and non healthy, nothing better than that!!

Today is a rainy day and my cycle started 2 days ago. Before I got pregnant, they were horrid, but now they have gotten worse. I called Kevin telling him, he might need to come home to help me with Liam because I
felt like I was going to black out, which, has happened plenty of times.
I didn't feel safe carrying Liam in my arms going up/down the stairs. It seemed to have passed this time. I am hoping it is just my body adjusting after childbirth. Recovery had been the worse for me. I will take the
contractions anyday.

Liam almost 14 weeks

My First blog post

Well, today is my first "BLOG". A lot has happened in the last year, so let me fill you in.
 I moved to the DFW Metroplex in May 2010, after Kevin my husband got a job. I was so
excited to get out of Louisville. A bigger city, new experiences. I couldn't wait!! After residing
in our new city for about, say, 8 days, I found out I was pregnant. I was excited and super scared.
 I didn't have any family near, and the only people we knew were pregnant with their own child,
so I didn't want to burden them.

When I started to have symptoms from the pregnancy, they were pretty bad. I thought, maybe it
will pass quickly. Well, they finally went away around week 19. And for 5 or 6 weeks I felt great!!
I LOVED being pregnant. I never could understand how people could say that after the way I felt
for so long, and now I got it : )...but then after those few glorious weeks. UGH, misery returned with
a vengeance. I was ready to have this baby at 31 weeks. My skin was stretched to the max. I was starving every 45 minutes, I was having even more trouble sleeping. BACK PAIN, oh the BACK PAIN!!! There were several times I asked Kevin to pray over my back because it hurt so bad : (

Liam greeted us on February 4, 2011 at 3:16 pm weighing 7lbs 3 ounces, 21 inches long. I was
so glad he was here. Childbirth terrified me my whole life, and I had done it!!! I was proud of
myself. The epidural, WOW, thank God for it, because when I got to the hospital at 5cm, that
pain was enough for me. I thought I would die. And I tried breathing and counting, yeah right,
it doesn't work. You can't ignore pain. It comes and slaps you in the face. A contraction, how I
would describe it, is your whole body seizing up tightly for anywhere from 15- 60 seconds, then
relaxing. Allowing you to attempt to regain some sanity from the pain : )

My worst part of childbirth was the recovery. I had severe edema in my legs, I looked like Shrek
legs lol. I had to have an episiotomy and a few other issues. So needless to say, afterwards was
impossible. I couldn't walk from the swelling, so getting upstairs was torture to say the least. Next time, I will sleep downstairs the first few weeks and save my energy for what needs it : )

I can honestly say i would do it all again. having a child is so miraculous, I can't describe. I thank
God everyday for Liam, because it was looking like we weren't able to have kids. It just wasn't happening. So my advice, keep trying. Anything is possible.

Liam is nearly 14 weeks. WOW. to type that is so surreal. I have a kid. Sometimes I don't feel
like I am ready to be a mom. I know they say you are never ready, and thats true for any life
changing event. I know that I am a great mom. I grew up around my moms daycare when I was younger, so I have experience in newborn babies. I am not one of these moms who freak out at
every little thing. Unless there is blood, they are okay : ) I don't worry about hand sanitizer, I wash my hands often, but our bodies have a natural ability to fight sickness. God made us that way. I guess
you could say i am a laid back mom style. BUT, I will be strict when it needs it. I will let Liam
be creative in any way he chooses. If he wants to dress like frankenstein at the age of 4, I will let him
(like on Big Daddy). Kids should be able to express themselves, if it truly is a harmless thing, that will not matter in 5 years. I will guide my child spiritually, but he is his own person. The clothes i want him
to wear may not be what he likes. I just think there are bigger issues to worry about when it comes
to raising a child. Like, manners, respect, descipline, social interaction, sharing with others, and a whole list, I could go on.

Well, I hear Liam telling me he is hungry so have to run for now, but I will post more soon

Until then : )